This post was written on the 11th of October.

I'm writing this on the train as I travel back home for my 28th Birthday, I'm on the train a little earlier than expected as I've just made a big decision. Today also happens to be Mental Health Day, what a coincidence, I've made this particular decision on this day, it's very timely indeed. Work is a big part of anyone's life but if you're not happy where you are, you have to change it. As good as my job is, somethings weren't so good.

I wasn't happy, I'd lost my spark, my creative flare and my motivation is at an all time low. I know in my heart stepping back and having a long good think about things is the right thing to do, I won't bore you all with the in's and out's of the matter, as there's somethings that will have to stay private, but at the end of the day I need to move on, and feel like this is the right time to do so.

Last night I read my 27th Birthday blog post, this is now a tradition of mine, re-reading last years blog post to see where I was and what I wanted in my life this time last year. I love doing this, as it's a time to reflect, and consider if my goals have changed, stayed the same, or even been broken in the past 365 days. I also like to see if my outlook for the future is what similar or totally different to what it was this time last year.

I always say these pre-birthday posts are a lot more personal and this one is probably the most personal to date. To let you guys into knowing how things are going on, in the inside, behind the instagram posts, behind the facade of the hat, rings and black skinny jeans. At this very moment in time, things are about to change a lot!

Right, negatives done and over, it's time to move on to those positives, ahh! Back to where I like to be! This weekend is my birthday. This weekend is the beer festival. Endings always mean new beginnings. The route I want to pursue is video, I know this now and I know something big is going to come of it. I have a lot of self confidence (a little too much says Chloe) in my ability to create killer video's and putting my individual personality and creative input into anything I capture with a camera, this is down to support from my amazing family and friends, telling me how good I am and boosting the ol' ego, but this isn't something to be shy of, this is something to tell the world, it's great to have self confidence, because with confidence comes everything!

Setting yourself targets, wanting to be the best, pushing yourself, wanting to learn more. I want to achieve all of that with hard work, meaning I want my video's to be the best. I've ticked a lot of boxes from my previous birthday post but this next year I want to be the boss, I want to make the decisions. I want to start something new, I want to succeed.

I'm thankful to all the opportunities I've had over the last eighteen months and the friends I've made along the way, but I truly believe in my heart this is the start of an even bigger journey! I always believe everything happens for a reason and the path you follow is meant to be, there's opportunities along the way that will pass you by if you don't give them your all, but if you are lucky enough to  catch them, the possibilities are endless. Good luck positive vibes and the universe will have your back.

In this particular circumstance however, you could say the thing I'm  most thankful for, is my foresight to buy and open return on the train!

Photographs by CJ Carpenter



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